Napowrimo day 12

"Alone"
I should be used to it
I should embrace it
I never will
Detest is what comes to mind
I'm alone
Never good enough
Never worth it
To much a friend
For my own good
I find myself
Imprisoned
Knowing better
Yet blindly pretending
Believing the lies
I tell myself
To get myself thru
Another day
I can believe them
no more

Napowrimo day 9

"Smile"
I could live
Within your smile
Or die
without it
your smile
Sings
A sunrise
Baby's laughter
The melody
Of your smile

I hear it
And I know you're close
I smile in return
Mine
a feeble reflection
A faded memory
Of scratch and dent
Hopes and dreams
Still I smile

Napowrimo day 7 "Broken"

"Broken"
I feel broken
Like something missing
Like you're missing
But that's not it
You're not missing
I'm broken
There's a difference
I've made my choice
I chose you
Choosing broke me
I knew it would
Broken
Not
killed
I remain unchanged
Your friend
Love you

Napowrimo day 6 "attached"

"Attached"
Attached can be
Over rated
Can be
Painful
Can be
A pain in the ass

Attached
Can be
Beautiful
So I've heard
Never seen it
Myself

Only the wreckage
Twisted forms
Broken hearts
Tears and sullen smiles
And lies

Lies like
"No, I'm fine"
Like
"Its all for the best"
Like
"I love you"

Like I said
Attached is overrated

Napowrimo day 5 "I'm sorry"

"I'm sorry"
I feel like this
Conflicted
What I know
And
What I feel
Battle within me
I'm sorry
I need to figure
Where I stand
I'm sorry
Still I remain
Doing the best I can
still
I'm sorry

Napowrimo #4 Hope

"Hope"
Hope is
a suckers bet
God's punchline
That thing I feel
Only when its gone
I try not to gave them
But they find me anyway
They lift me up
So they can throw me down
Heal my wounds
To rip them open again
Bring me peace
To show me what it is
I can't have

Napowrimo day 1 Willing Fool

"Willing Fool"
Call me your fool
I wear that name with pride
I'm your willing fool
I must be a fool
To do this
To say this
To court this kind of pain
Call me your fool
A fool who
Holds you without condition
Loves you without question
Kisses you without remorse
Yes
I am that fool
Your fool
I open my heart
To you
Foolishly
Without fear

Napowrimo day 3 - in your eyes

"Your eyes"
I could be cliche
Speaking of deep pools
Stars and midnight
But that wouldn't do

I could be poetic
And tell you how
I get lost in your eyes
Forgetting myself
In their wonder
And beauty

But that wouldn't do

I'm not lost in your eyes
But found
It is there
In their shadow I find
Myself more myself
Than ever

Not lost but I live
Alive
In tour eyes